Thank you CODY !! You just made my day !!!  



Well as you know I decided to get a prescription to help me Quit finally smoking . Today is the first day with No NO NO BUTTS  

I was scared to get up this morning after all the first ting I did for the past 20 years is grab the coffee and go smoke a butt . But I woke this morning ..got a cup of green tea and DID MY WORKOUT !!!! I am very impressed to say the least so far ... I have Not wanted a BUTT all day , No massive craving or headache or anything I have felt before . Yes I have kept busy mostly ...Not because i WANT A butt BUT I have all this time on my hands ..LOL I did notice though I need to eat Before taking them pills ... Made my belly upset this morning .. other then that ALL IS GOOD!!!!   I'll continue to keep this updated for the next couple weeks to show how it 'pill' is working ...THEY JUST MAY HAVE HIT THE JACK POT ON THIS !!!!

Heidi, looks like you're well on the way to stomping out that smoking habit.  Congratulations!!!!!

Thank you CODY !!


   DAy 2 . Well so far so good and YES it Feels GOOD . I made it throuh another morning with not even a problem .. This Pill is amazing . I have not wanted a Yuck Butt yet . In fact the hands to face motion isnt bothering me either . I just tell myself You are fine You can do this I am in charge .

I have not had my morning coffee for both of these days ..But Honestly I was drinking a pot by myself everday for so long that I actually have been weaning myself from it and with in the last 2 months i WAS ONLY drinking 1 cup a day . I miss it But very lil . I am going to make a cup this afternoon just to see how I react with it . Let ya know how I make out LOL !!

Ok I am almost finished week 2 of taking this med for Quitting smoking . Sorry I haven't posted latley ..been busy . Anyway s , The pills seems to be doing the job , I tired a butt a couple times ..when I was really Mad and YUCK I thought I was going to get sick . They just dont taste the same that is for sure .

Hard parts are these .... how to deal when you get stressed or mad ..Far much easier to grab a butt and leave well enough alone  so having to figure out what to do is the hard part . An honestly I dont crave a butt when Mad just a habbit  I have always done , so That I am still learning .  And finding myself having a hard time filling in the time still .. there is only so much house work or yard work one can do ... so that is a bit diffuclt . Driving surprising to me has been easy ..Dont know why but it has been .

Now for side effects ....Well my stomache has some pain ..Like upset Like when you eat too much and you feel sick .. and Dreams . OMG The dreams are bad . They are like you are really there and BAD . Yesterday I dreamed my parents died I could see them like it was so real ... I woke to this which made for a not so pleasant morning . So Last night I did not Take my PM pill . And I didnt dream like that so ..I will test for 2 more days to see how I dream and if it better ten I will not be taking the pills at night .  The other side effect is weight gain . As you all know I am on a mission to gain myself back ... Well I have put on 5 lbs since taking this ..NOT TOO HAPPY ... so I am going to see if with in the next week I loose or gain again . 5 LBS in the lil time is alot expecially when I work my butt off to loose it ..so if I continue to gain I 'm afraid the pills will have to stop . Hopefully I woll have taken them long enough to keep smoke free ..Time will tell .

  The other thing I have decided to do is ..go back to work with my husband . I have been home with lil Jayden for 15 months and it is time . I need to get back to it for my own mind lol ...starting to feel trapped and a Bit depressed so in 2 weeks I will be back . It wont be too bad I will be working Mon thru Thurs  7 to 3 so I will be home by 4 and still do family stuff like dinner and I will have 3 day weekends so I can get stuff done around here and all so it should be fine . I believe my mother in law will be watching Jayden here at home so it should be ok .   So sheet rock world be prepared I'm coming back to screw around LMAO!!! Well that is about it for now ...

when my grampa quit smoking he chewed alot of gum. every time he got the urge he'd have a piece of gum

Heidi, don't worry about the weight gain.  When dad quit, he gained some, but it didn't take him long to loose it back off once he got back in his normal routine.  Echoing grizzly's comment, dad always liked sucking on red hots when he quit smoking.  I bet he kept that company open during those couple of months!!!!

LMAO !!    Yes I have Blow Pops ....works for it pretty good . Trust you me ... Butts are very GROSS tasting . I will get through this . Pretty soon I wont need these pills    I'll get back here soon .

Mood Swings .... Woman are Famous for them ..But WOW I'm drivin myself nuts !!!  All I can do is keep trying ..If I fail Try again . Not an easy task so it may take a bit .

Looking forward to getting back to work . I have 2 weeks to make sure everything is in order for an easy transformation .  And work on my TAN LOL !!! Mom is ready to come be my nanny starting the week of June 20 so  Soon I'll be writing more on Friday's and weekends ... By the time I get home from work ..dinner and time with Kids ..I wont have alot here . Boy I will miss that .

       Well it's a Bright Sunny day so ..Out to do some work around outside . Check back in later !!! Have fun my friends

Went to the Doctors .  I have been having some issus with the Pill .  She has taken me off of them ,

     My stomach was really starting to hurt .. and I couldn't go to the potty . Some of the more serious side effects of the pill , she wants me to try them again in a couple months ... if it happens again she will try another , there are a couple . I guess I'm lucky to have only had those symtoms ,,,my brother took one brand and had a really bad reaction which put him in the hopspital over night .
  I tried to stay away ...BUT I lost that battle AGAIN , Hard once you start .


  Well been tilling the yard . I have my area just about ready for the garden ..YES I am late but Not too LATE . The way it is I will have lots of Good Veggies when we come back from the GT .  I think I will have a LAWN FINALLY . Today I need to fine till a bit and later the seed will be down .... You may wonder why I am so Excited  about it ...well for 2 years we have spent 400.00 on seed and lime . And the Grass didnt take ..It was TERRIBLE and Depressing ... well it has been because the guy that would power rack the thing would then pack it down with the Bucket ..... The ground was so hard out there like concert ,,, No wonder .. anyways I dont have that problem anymore LOL .

          Enjoy your day ...doing what it is you do !!

Heidi, that sucks that the pills messed you up.  Keep trying girl, you'll kick it sooner or later!!!!!

Well Finally was able to get the seed down and Mother Nature has been kind enough to water it for me LOL  .  I sure hope it will take . Drives me crazy ..Grass will grow anywhere and evrywhere ... My garden area is just about ready .. Just need to work the soil a bit more ..Hopefully today is the weather works with me .  

I heard from my daughter Amber ...she is living with a friend and her & Boyfriend got back togther .. Good for the lil boy who will be here in a few months .  At least she is ok .

  Brandi and Catelyn started Final Exams today .... I sure hope they pass !!  Been having some problems with that stuff ... Brandi has some issuse and it drives me Nuts when she doesn't think she needs to study ... I'm to the point where I guess it is her life and if she ends up messing it up She will have Noone eles to blame . I have always taught them to have more then 1 choice in life so if 1 doesn't work at least they have another ... Brandi took Cosmotology ...Failed that class    Because she didnt apply herself enough ... so now she wants to be an EMT ... Which is fine with me ...But she better start thinking Really hard .. she will be a Junior this coming year ...17 in Sept and is getting to the point where she will not be ready if she doesn't commit to something soon . But heck I'm mom LOL I dont know ANYTHING ....

   Catelyn slacked off all year F's across the board while living with JoAnn .. She is working Really hard to bring her stuff up I hope she can pull it off ... She was a A student till this past year ..Kids just dont make sense ...she knows that she is messing up . She wants to work with Horses when she gets old enough ... Well she has been working with them since she was 8 .  She loves them they are her Passion .  So I hope she pulls it through and completes her goals . I pray they BOTH reach their Goals ....

    Well just babbling on ...  LOL  Just a mothers thoughts ...where I dont get argued with LOL .

  Enjoy your day and have fun .

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I pray they BOTH reach their Goals ....

I'm with you on that.  It's hard being a kid nowadays, but some how or another you gotta get through it.
Glad to hear you've got some seeds in the ground.  Hope that garden turns out wonderful.

Cody

WOW ,.,,, been along time for writing here . Better start getting caught up  . SOON LMAO~!

HEIDI I JUST READ YOUR STORY BOY HAVE YOU HAD IT BAD....THE D.C.Y.F. THING REALLY PISSED ME OFF THEY SHOULD'NT HAVE DONE THAT TO YOU....BUT YOU''LL GET BACK TO WHERE THING'S SHOULD BE WITH CATE...IM SURE ! I ALWAYS SAID DO NOT TRUST THE SYSTEM....AND THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE....I HATE THE GOVERNMENT ALWAY'S WILL.....BUT IM GLAD YOUR DOING REALLY GOOD NOW HEIDI....OR AT LEAST YOU SOUND LIKE YOU ARE...WELL I GOTTA GET BACK TO MY BLOG CHAT LATER HEIDI...

Thanks Brian . Yeah it has been a very long and hard time But now we have Gaurdianship of Catelyn and the rest of the kids have moved in . Our family is complete and Busy LOL . I cant complain !!   The kicker about the DCYF is that they will help and give kids back to drug users and child abusers , Most of them dont even have Kids of their own .  And then they have regular people who volenteer to be CASA workers to help take kids away .... THE SYSTEM IS BULL . They spent so much time on me and how many kids that were really abused or negleted where being ignored ... And the people who adopted Cate .... Well lets just say there is alot of problems there so the "PERFECT " Family they thought they were giving Cate wasnt so perfect afterall . I am only grateful that JoAnn let Cate find us and let her come home . And that for the most part Cate was safe and some what happy there Until things happend  .